cupcakey treats :: in over my head
amazon.com knows i love the book, so it kindly informed me when there was a new one by the same folks. it's called Little Cakes From The Whimsical Bakehouse: Cupcakes, Small Cakes, Muffins and other Mini Treats.
so, i requested it from our local library right away. had to check it out and can't afford to buy all the cookbooks i want, so i get them from the library often. when i got it i was not disappointed. it's as beautiful and whimsical as the first. i loved it.
i made their vanilla cupcakes and house buttercream, decorated like gerbera daisies...or supposed to be. i would include the recipes, but i already returned the book! as you can see, mine are not really fitting the description.
now, here is where the problem begins. it's something about me. how i am. i get a bee in my bonnet about making something or trying something new and i expect myself to be able to get it picture perfect on the first try. i get all twirked when it doesn't look like the picture in the book. i'm so hard on myself. clearly the folks at the WB are talented and have also practiced and practiced and tried new techniques to achieve the results they get.
so, why am i so hard on myself?
i'm not sure. i think it is because i long to be *really* good at something. i have never been a real career oriented person. so, i can't really say i "AM" something...painter, artist, teacher, web designer, engineer or what have you. being a mom is the first thing i have done that gives me any kind of identity or label like that. and i know i am a good mom. i feel proud of that. but i also want something that is just me that i can be good at outside of that.
because, what happens when they are all grown up and don't need me anymore? then who, what am i?